In the latest episode of Pickleballers, pro player Grayson Goldin sits down with Roscoe and Jared to share the full story of suffering two strokes at 30 years old — how it happened, what those six days in the hospital were like, and what his road back to the court has looked like. It’s one of the most raw and honest conversations we’ve ever had on the show.

Grayson breaks down exactly how it unfolded: A chiropractic adjustment after a tournament left something feeling off, and nine days later he woke up unable to form sentences. He traces the moment on court when water started “pouring into his head,” the frantic trip to the ER, and the doctor delivering the news that he’d had not one, but two strokes — visible as two dark spots on his brain scan.

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Grayson also opens up about his path to pickleball — from being ranked No. 1 in the country in junior tennis at 12, to selling life insurance after college, to stumbling onto packed pickleball courts in Sarasota and deciding to go all-in. He shares what it felt like walking into Atlanta and watching Federico and Hayden on center court, the moment he knew this was it, and why he still believes he can be No. 1 in the world.

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